Surgery, Complications, and a moment of Near Death?

I had surgery almost two weeks and have been recovering not so well. Wednesday, I lost 3 pints of blood while at home between 2-5 AM. I couldn't stop the bleeding. I called the doctor and had him schedule an emergency session to stop the bleeding that morning. While I was waiting, I actually tried to complete the project that I was working on. I didn't know if I was going to make it out alive. Whether they could save me before I lost too much blood. I spent an hour while bleeding profusedly to complete my assignment for my job. I was trying to get it to a point where it could be handed off, in case something happened to me. And I was able to complete it. Thank God.

The loss of blood did not hit me until later during the day. I felt cold inside. The kind of cold feeling that people who are bleeding to death feel. My arms started shaking and I started quivering. During that time and the next 72 hours, I had a lot of strange thoughts go through my head. I even had a dream about someone I loved in my past. I started having regrets about my life. I started to put down my computer job, which I had been enjoying quite a bit.

Thank God I am starting to feel normal again. It's been 4 days since and my blood levels are starting to come back. I hope to be getting better in the next few weeks.